Monday, May 16, 2011

Schedules

This past week I had a different work schedules because one of the girls had to nanny for a family and had to take the kids to school and couldn't open. I had to work 3 mornings at 5 am instead of 1, I also didn't work my late night. I am only telling you this because you will need this info for my story ;) I work at a gym, so the same people workout at the same times, everyday. I normally am only here on Thursday mornings, but when I was here on Tuesday and Wednesday, I had at least 5 people tell me "umm I am confused, is it Thursday already?" Then, I had my manger tell me that she had 3 people ask where I was on Tuesday when I wasn't at work until 8. I know the people are trying to be friendly, and mean no harm, but it also makes me think that complete strangers know my schedule. What if they did want to hurt me or something else along those lines. I know I live in a small town, but things can happen anywhere, to anyone. It is just a reminder for me to be aware of my surroundings. Are you aware of what's going on around you?!

Have a good one,
E

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Catching Up.

Well, what's new I haven't posted for a few weeks so here I am to do a recap. Our life never slows down, but that is okay, I have come to terms with it, and at least we are making memories!..some good and some bad. Pete had bought a new suit a few weeks ago for his friends funeral and it already has a hole in the pocket so we decided to take it back since we paid over $200 for it. On our way to the mall he goes, "well I have gotten more use out of that suit in a month than I have ever gotten out of my old one; two funerals, two weddings, and a work event." Wow, we are busy people! Since I have blogged last, one of my uncles passed away. He was fighting with stage 4 throat and mouth cancer, and was only 56 years old. It is sad to see that happen, but we know he is in a better place and will not be in horrible pain, ever again.

 May is always an exciting month with schools getting out and people graduating. It has been 4 years since my friends and I have started college, therefore, a bunch of them graduated this weekend. I think that reality has really set in that we are adults now. I know I graduated in December, but it didn't feel real I guess because I still hung out with all my friends who are still going to class and living that "college life". Plus, I only work 2 days a week because my super awesome husband works hard for the monnnayyy. ;) But after yesterday, the majority of my close friends are finished. Two will be moving to New York, one next month and the other in September. The farthest that any of my close friends went for college was Mizzou, which is only 3 and a half hours away from me. So New York is a big step. I told my friend Lauren that this is summer when we take our "girls trip" it is going to be so different, so grown up. We are all going to be coming from all different places, taking different flights at different times. We all won't be flying together from the same airport! YIKES, adulthood! Honestly, I love it though. Maybe, selfishly, it is because I am they one that is married, or even in a relationship for that matter with a husband that works hard and is good at what he does, so I am lucky enough to only work part-time. I am not stressed about money, or my future or HAVING to have a job to survive. I thank God for this everyday. I am so blessed. No matter how bad "things" get or hard I think I have it, I just have to remember how blessed I am to have an awesome husband that loves me no matter what, an equally as awesome family, a roof over my head(even if that changes more often than normal..more to come), a job, food to eat, etc. I could go on and on about all the ways I am blessed, and that is what keeps me going, day in and day out.
 Have a great Sunday! Enjoy something you love!
E

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Blessings

Last night when I was up late and couldn't sleep, I was looking at my normal blogs and Kellys Korner had wrote about a song she had heard that day, which was exactly what I needed...
"Blessings" - Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

refrain

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

God Is  Good.
It's Thursday!! Have a good one.
Erin

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Purpose

Do you ever wonder why God put you on this earth? I have been praying hard lately, and asking what my purpose is here on earth. Now that I have graduated college and gotten married alot has changed for me and I feel like I need to do something else...what it is I am not sure. Then lately, as in the past year of my life I have been surrounded by nothing but tragedy and sadness. I am not writing this post to have anyone feel sorry for me or asking for comfort, I am writing it for myself, and for me to look back on and see what is really going on in my life. So with that said here are the few things that me and my family have been through in the past year..ish...in no certain order, just how I thought of them
-I lost my first grandparent on Halloween last year, unexpectedly
-My fiance at the time, aunt suddenly passed away.
-my sister lost one of her identical twins at birth
-my brother got re-ended by someone going 72 on the interstate, thankfully no one was hurt
-my uncle got diagnosed with stage 4 throat and mouth cancer
-my moms cousin committed suicide
-my aunt when through a divorce due to her husband cheating
-my husbands last grandparent passed away
-one of my husbands closest friends( a groomsman in our wedding) committed suicide
I am sure there is many more that I can not think of at the moment, but I think that will do considering those are the ones I can think of off the top of my head without stopping...ending with the last 2 which we found both out today. I have never seen my husband with more sadness and blankness in his face. When I was in 9th grade one of my moms best friends and one of the other mothers in my "families" committed suicide, at that moment, I couldn't understand. Watching that family get torn apart and never make it back has effected me in a way that was life-changing. Then again, 3 months ago when my moms cousin did the same thing, was life changing. Now, watching my husband suffer the way that I did years ago, a way that no words can describe, a way that hurts SO bad but there is no healing or comfort anyone can cure. Hurts me, a lot. Thinking about his wife who is 27 years old and having to try to heal and deal with this for the remainder of her life. Why? Why? The question that will never be answered... its just like when. does. it. stop? Is this how God intended on my life here on earth to be? Surrounded but complete tragedy constantly? Why does he believe I am so strong? We do have good days, and I know that and there are for sure more good than bad and I KNOW people have it way, way worse than me. BUT for me and my life right now it sucks, it really sucks. So now, I am clinging to the Lord like I never have before, I am looking for positives in every situation. I am forcing myself to open up to my husband about all things, holding nothing back. Every time something happens like this it is just one more wake up call for me. I am sure I will follow up on this more at another time but I needed to get this out while it was fresh on my mind. Right now, I need to go cuddle with the hubs.

love
Erin

Jesus replied, "You do not realise now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
John 13:7

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid."
John 14:27

Thursday, March 31, 2011

What's been going on!!

Well, I am really bad about this blogging thing, that is all there is to it! With that said, here is what has been happening in our house in the past few weeks...

**I am still working 2 12 hour shifts at healthpoint and babysitting a full day on wednesdays and one night a week for the other family. I love those kids so much. Pete on the other hand is taking a class on T and TH nights and doesn't get home until 10! I struggle staying awake until he gets off at 7:30 some nights, can you imagine what I am like at 10! HA
**I have started running again, slowly, but it feels good. Reminds me why I love it so.
**Speaking of running, my parents did a half marathon recently, im jealous!
**One of my closest childhood friends got engaged! I am SO happy for her. Life is moving so fast. Her sister also just had her first child, and their dad retired, big week in their home :)
**My little nephew is becoming cuter and cuter as he gets older, he is so fun right now crawling around and playing. He is also starting to recognize faces and knows certain people..better be showing my face alot more, wouldn't want him to not know who his favorite auntie was!
** Pete and I finished our house on William street and listed it with a realtor, pray it sell quickly.
**My friend Patty, who is pregnant hit the 20 week mark last week, I am so excited for her and her husband!
** We got a BRAND new 2011 chevy truck, it is so pretty....then I hit a telephone pole that is in my alley to get to my house, not good. Pete was actually a lot more calm about it than me, it really made me mad at myself. Dents can always be fixed I guess...
**That is all I can really think of right now, I am excited for it to get warmer outside so I can start running outside and getting our landscaping organized and so we have grill and have people over. Last summer, almost every weekend us and a few other couples got together and hung out and grilled and talked into wee hours of the night, those are my new "married" friend and I love them so. I can't wait to see us in 5-10 years when we all have kids and spend the nights chasing them around instead of sitting around a table drinking, and talking about ourselves..oh how the times change..exciting!!
**Oh, one more thing since we are on the topic of nice weather and landscape...I have a garden this year, granted it is on pots and it is only 5 different things, I am excited..I'll keep you updated(as often as I update you will probably hear about it each time I blog ha) hopefully they stay alive until my next post! :)

Thanks for the patience, if anyone still checks to see if I update that is :)
Have a fab Thursday! I know I will--all of my friends from Mizzou are on spring break and they knew that cape would have the most fun of all the places in the world on their break, so we are all hanging out tonight..now if I can only make it until 5pm on 4 hours of sleep...hmmmmmm.
bye

Thursday, February 17, 2011

New Water Bottle!

So I have been looking for a new water bottle for a while, you know the kind you can toss in the bottom of your huge purse and just go? Well, when my mom and I were in STL she found one, but forgot to tell me about it until we were in the car. Lucky for me, she had a dentist appt in STL on Tuesday and since I was sick she picked one up for me!

Except mine is orange! I love it..or I love the concept, because I haven't had a chance to use it yet. It is cool because it is plastic and as you drink it gets smaller and when it is empty you can just roll it up and tuck it away. It also is dishwasher safe, which is awesome, minus the fact that I do not have a dishwasher..someday!
My mom is going to kill me when she sees that but I couldn't resist! She sent me a picture that said get better soon here is a surprise (that is a picture of the water bottle if you can't tell, sorry it is small) and then she also sent me this picture.....
My little nephew telling me to get better too! He is getting so big, and handsome! :)

That's all I've got for today! Have a great day!
Erin


Weekly Update and the FLU!

Ok so this past week....and a half I had great intentions on posting, but I was busy everyday and everyday I would think..I really need to post and I wouldn't. So the next day I would think about posting about the past two days, and three days, and four days and then the hubs got sick, then I got sick. So here I am sitting up straight for the first time in 2 days writing about our whole week!
Monday--Ever since I was 10 my mom and my two aunts from her side would go shopping for my birthday. They also did this with my sister and my other girl cousin Aly. We are all still doing it today..My sister is 25, I am 22, and my cousin Aly will be turning 16 this year!! Now that I am not living at home it is so fun for me to have a day to hangout with my mom and just catch up. I feel like the only way we can do this really is if we get out of town because we both stay so busy here at home! We started the day with pedicures, then met my sister and Wyatt for lunch before heading to the mall! The whole day was great and I got a bunch of very cute clothes, which is the whole goal right? :)

Tuesday-- I worked 8am-8pm. That pretty much sums it up.
Wednesday--On Wednesday's I babysit a little girl all day, she is so fun and has the biggest personality I have ever seen in a two year old!! For example, When I asked her what she wanted for breakfast and I started naming all the cereal in the cabinet, when I said lucky charms, she shouts "lucky charms, that's what I'm talkin bout!" I almost died laughing. It is true, kids say the darnest things ( I sound like my motherr ;) ) Then normally I sit for my other family on Thursday night's but this week they needed me Wed, so I headed straight over there when I was finished for the rest of the evening.
Thursday--I worked 5am-5pm and Pete was off that day so when I got home we ran some errands and got a few things from the store and came home and made dinner and just caught up on some shows on our DVR!
Friday--Normally I am off Friday's, but I had a baby shower that I wanted to go to on Saturday so I asked a girl to switch me and therefore I worked all day Friday. Then after work I ran to target and got a gift for the shower and went to my hair appointment.. I got red put in my hair and I am going to have to say I am not use to it yet..hopefully it will wear on me, or fade whichever comes first! :) I also got some things to make so last minute Valentine's day decor....





When Pete got off work we went to eat at Fazoli's and went to see Just go with it with our friends Brad and Kristi.

 I'll admit when he described which movie it was, I was not excited at all. I did not think it was going to be very good, just a guy with a fake wedding ring, trying to get girls...but, I can honestly say it was one of the best movies I have seen in a long time! Pete and I have been on a movie kick lately, like 2 a week and this one tops them all! When we got in the car I was like man! I could watch that again!..Pete even agreed! I highly recommend it!!

Saturday--Pete woke up feeling horrible. I would have to say that Pete is a pretty tough guy and doesn't really complain too much..ever. So when he does I know he is really feeling bad. He can't really call into work so he toughed it out and headed off to work. I got ready for the baby shower and picked up a few things around the house before it was time to go. The shower was in a town about 45 minutes away so another girl from work, Shelby, who recently got engaged and asked me to be her matron of honor (!!!!), rode together, we had a lot of wedding deets to talk about anyways! :) Our conversation made the drive pass by quickly! The shower was so sweet and Maggie looked adorable! Her due date is April 8th and its a boy, Owen Daniel! I can't wait! :) When we got back to Cape I ran to the store and picked up so soup and cheese to make grilled cheese with for dinner since Pete was sick. We just hung out on the couch and watch TV.
Sunday--Pete woke up feeling better, but I let him sleep in until about 10am. and then we got up and I made breakfast and we went and ran a few errands. It was a really nice day outside so we decided to go to a few open houses for the fun of it and just look. Which was fun, we are always looking :). Then, we decided to head to Jackson and hangout with our parent's for a bit. We have to pass sonic to get to his mom's house, and lucky for me it was 3:32..happy hour! So we had to make a pit stop :). We hung out over there for a bit and then headed over to my parent's. They are training for a half marathon (GO THEM) and since they were in STL at my sisters all weekend, they didn't have a chance to do their long run until Sunday, so as Pete and I pull onto our street I see them running up the hill on their way home..from running 9 miles! SO proud of them, wish I was in that good of shape again! We hung out there for a bit, then headed home and grilled some chicken and green beans for dinner. What a relaxing Sunday!
Monday--on the other hand was not so relaxing, I work up at 4am sprinting for the toilet, or something to be sick in..and it last all. day. long. I have not been sick like that since I was a kid I do not think. Miserable! I layed in bed all day, I did not do one thing. And, I continued to lay there until about 2 on Tuesday and then got up, took a shower, and ate some soup. Then layed on the couch the rest of the day/ night. :) I am disappointed that I was sick over Valentines day. Not because Pete and I had big romantic plans, because neither one of us get too excited about Valentines day, but because we have had a joke going for a long time that I was going to get a Papa Murphy's heart shaped pizza for v-day dinner and I couldn't..now I have to wait a whole year :( I told him what I was going to do though, he said he could wait a year ;) Thank goodness he is so understanding. HAHA!
Today, Wednesday, I am feeling way better and came to babysit today. C is taking a nap ;). I plan on running so errands when I get done here before I head home and start dinner. I feel like I have so much to do since I was sick the first 2 days of the week. I hate feeling behind. I am going to Columbia with 2 of my girlfriends this weekend for Pete's sister's 21 bday celebration. I am so excited to see all my friends up there, but sad at the same time because this is the first time Pete and I have been apart in a long time, plus he is off work...makes it hard to leave! Maybe he will actually get some things done around the house that he has really wanted to do since I won't be there to follow him around like a puppy dog! HA!
Well think that was long enough!??!
HAPPY HUMP DAY!
Erin